This post was originally published in January 2016. My word (or words) for this year are included in the newest episode of The Homeschool Sisters Podcast – out Jan. 10.)
Did I tell you guys about my word for this year?
That’s a new thing people seem to be doing. Instead of setting resolutions, we pick words and write them on old buildings and Instagram them.
I really want a word. I’ve tried choosing them in the past, but never had much luck.
But this year, whenever I would think of what I wanted my word to be, the thought that came coming to mind was actually two words:
And that doesn’t count.
Not only is it double the limit, it’s also sort of negative sounding, isn’t it?
I live in a house where “shut up,” is more off-limits than most four letter words. “Stop it” sounds like an admonishment.
“Stop doing that — you’re wrong, it’s wrong, and don’t make me throw you out of here.”
And yet, as the new year progresses, it keeps coming up.
Stop it, I hear myself thinking.
- Stop it with the worrying. There is literally nothing you can do in this moment about that thing over which you have zero control.
- Stop it with the trying to make crazy things seem sane. They aren’t. Give them a wide berth, and then get back on course.
- Stop it with the guilt and the pressure on yourself. That stuff is a destructive acid bath.
- Stop it with the checking Facebook because you don’t want to have the conversation, clean the thing, cook the stuff.
- I mean stop it with the avoiding, really — you’re 30-mrph-mrph years old.
- Probably stop it with the not being loud and proud about your age. (38)
- Stop it with the old — the way you were taught, the way you were raised, they way that you’ve believed for so long.
Stop it, so you can begin again. Stop it, because before doesn’t matter.
Today does. And so does tomorrow.
“For one day, refrain from something you habitually do to escape. Pick something concrete, such as overeating or spending too much time checking emails. Make a comittment to yourself to gently work with refraining from this habit. Do this with the intention that it will put you in touch with the underlying anxiety or uncertainty you’ve been avoiding.” ~ Pema Chodron